Jessica.
22.
Teacher.
Hello Kitty.
Manchester United.
Khekster.
My Kettle. <3

You can mail me at:
jessi_078@hotmail. com

had work todae as usual.
but till 3pm only.
den i tot i got to rush to teach arfah.
coz shes having maths exam tmr.
n shes pretty weak in maths.
so i was on my way at her hse downstairs alr
when her mummy called me.
knew it wasnt smth gud la.
so yea.
cancelled.
i mean i shldnt realli care.
but im so worried for arfah dats all.
shes my student.
i muz make sure she do well.
i juz find her mum weird la.
she wans me to help her daughter,
make her improve,
score well,
den she keeps cancelling juz to go hari raya outing,
she tinks her daughter will benefit frm this?
if she blames me for nt making her daughter improve,
i'll shoot right at her face
all my unhappiness.
den she jolly well sack me to end my sorrows.
i dun even nid her damn money.
i juz detest ppl who break promises.
how many times muz i repeat
dat promises arent meant to be broken.
she ps-ing has no difference wif breaking promises.
shes a v nice lady.
but her ps problem is an ENORMOUS problem,
at least to me.
frenz who noe me well noe dat i hate it when
ppl ps me.
i wun quattel of argue or wadever
to ppl who ps me,
so all the more dat shows the level of my angriness.
i seriously hav no idea y
i juz hate ppl ps-ing me,
but its like im born wif it.
my family members noe it well.
if my daddy ps-es me,
i would gif him cold shoulder
till he becums extreme nice to me.
n its the same frm me to others.
i dun ps ppl.
i realli dont.
unless im realli sick n
confined to bed.
but dat doesnt happen often.
scream n shout at me for all u wan
if ever i ps u.
becoz i dont like ppl to ps me,
therefore i dont do the same to others.
n i hate changes too.
as in when ive alr planned smth well beforehand,
i cant stand it when i need to amend my timeplan.
its like my day would juz get in a mess
n i get mixed up n all confused abt wad
im gonna do one thing aft another.
den gotta pick another dae to MI BU
the one dat was cancelled.
argh.
its a silly thing to do realli.
getting ur life all mixed up.
n it doesnt mean im nt flexible.
juz dat i simply dont like it.
but i wont complain as far as possible
becoz i understand dat others haf their own problems too.
so compromise ba.
like how i allow the tuition to get postponed
n postponed without kicking up a fuss.
nt even showing signs of unhappiness.
coz i noe its hari raya
n they are definitely busy wif everything.
but its ok.
i took the time to shop ard,
juz spendin sum time alone.
den i took my small sis out to plaza sing
to haf dinner
while the rez of my family went to haf steamboat.
i sorta quarelled wif daddy
n i dun wan to see his face while eating ya.
n i went to DAISO.
everything at $2!
n i bot boxes n kitty hangers!
OH i caught a pic of the cool guy at tamp agaiN!
he earns alot man.
crowd always forms ard him when he performs!

n him?
poor thing.
ppl dun appreciate his hardwork.
he's blind n can play the keyboard so well.
but nobody wans to donate to him.
sob.

This is the 2 girls performing kinda ART.
quite cute.
but endurance level muz be high enuf.
still,
nobody donates.


realised ive been more organised this year.
see!








so u guys out dere,
if u haf messy drawers or cupboards,
waste no time!
hurry n start now!

3:03 AM ·

had my first try out lesson todae.
i enjoyed it alot.
the kids were so adorable.
4 years old.
when i first stepped into the class,
i was welcomed by this cute little boy
who came rushing towards me
n gave me such a huge hug.
i was shocked of coz!
he is Lin Bin.
Singaporean ya.
n thru out the lesson,
games, songs etc,
he wld hug me,
n do all sorts of things la.
honestly though hes juz a kid,
i'll get shy too.
i realli take my hands off him man.
hes damn super duper HYPER.
a hundred thousand billion zillion
times more hyper than my class.
but well,
i still adore him alot.
nt forgetting the other kids too.
im just so glad dat the kids were all v nice to me.
realli luv them alot.
im so tired after one whole dae at berries.
i tink i gonna slp.
working at berries tmr too.
den rushing off to arfah's hse to gif her tuition.
argh.
i need to slp.
im sneezing like mad now.
shucks.
mdm hong gave me this book!
《赏识你的孩子》。
a book worth reading definitely.
thanks so much!

11:01 PM ·

wow.
i met tommy n annabelle todae.
one aft another when i was about to go for shopping.
tommy realli gave me a shock.
been damn long since i last saw him.
i juz thought of him few daes ago
n he actuali appeared right infront of me todae.
chatted wif him for abt half an hour outside tmall.
den i got in tmall n up the escalator.
dats when i met annabelle.
chatted wif her for another approx half an hour.
wow amazing.
met many ice creams todae.
so many in a row.
n damn it.
todae my dressing sux.
i tot it was only a 2 hr lesson
n juz a tutorial.
so i dun wanna 'waste' my pretty clothes todae.
gonna keep them for lectures.
n WAD THE.
wad a joke man.
anyways its over.
nt gonna brood over it animore.
submitted my first entry on livejournal.
finally got the chinese thingy fixed.
thanks to yaoyao.
been window shopping online recently.
its fun!!
zhaizi n i was toking abt setting up a shopping blog tgt.
den we can sell our clothes n accessories.
realli need to clear my wardrobe.
too packed.
n many clothes are those which im nt gonna wear animore.
might as well sell them.
make sum money.
shall see when im free to take pics of my unwanted clothes.
oh ya.
im so happy i finished reading the 《玩偶之家》 script.
sense of satisfaction.
tmr gotta wake up at 7am.
boohoo.
so early.
ive got work at 8am.
n i hav lessons at 8.45am.
which means i'll be doing both admin work n
assist teaching tmr.
hope it'll be a funfilled day.
3rd week at Berries now.
yay.
next week can get pay liao.
end of month can get tuition pay too.
wa first time getting 2 pays tgt.
finally see sum hope in my bank.
bel didnt attend sch todae.
coz of her throat.
she better drink loads of water.
hope she recovers soon!
=)

11:40 PM ·

well.
a sad dae for me todae.
my fren is gonna retain.
haix.
another one.
y issit dat frenz ard me hav been telling me
dat they're retaining.
its realli sad hearing these news frm them.
n i seriously haf no idea how to console them.
mayb im juz not gud wif words.
i noe they feel sad.
n real sad.
as in i cant say things like
"oh dun take things to heart.
look at the brighter side"
and these bullshits.
coz u noe its impossible for them to tink it dat way.
i mean ive been thru these before
n no matter how much i say
i noe i wun be able to get them out of their sorrows.
i tink they juz need time.
yea.
TIME.
anyway i realli hope they can get themselves
back on feet again
n dun treat it as if its the end of the world.
perhaps retaining isnt as bad as wad they tink.
the sch is giving them another chance to
learn again n u noe..
its like a second chance.
so they shld cherish this second chance
n realli prove others dat they can do even better.
or alot better than those who didnt get retain.
of course i understand the struggle they are facing now.
its easier said than done.
but still,
i hope u guys can realli JIA YOU
n rmb dat i'll oways be ur side no matter wad k?
juz gif me a call or drop me a msg again when u all need
a pair of listening ears or sumone to tok to.
juz dun forget im always on standby mode.
ok enuf of the nt so happy stuffs.
todae im so happy i met shing liang finally aft like how long!
in the library!
hes inside the room.
n i was walking past.
den i caught eye of him
n a bit too slow to react.
but im so happy he didnt forget abt this lil girl's presence on earth.
so we waved n smiled widely
n it juz got me so HYPED UP!
yayayaya!
hes juz so cool n nice la.
seriously thank god im in ngee ann poly.
haha.
so wads up for todae.
had drama lesson.
n it was filled wif fun n laughter.
i simply luv ah liang's lesson.
i luv the way he speaks.
though his pronunciation can be improved.
hes so friendly n has great sense of humor.
dats wad i like abt him.
n hooray.
chenying's lesson was cancelled.
saved me frm the popular culture module.
n den aft the 3hrs break (when i met shingliang),
it was master boey's tutorial!
yay!
i luv him too!
hes damn nice a teacher la.
v humorous too.
can mingle pretty well wif us.
he teaches us social pyschology.
in english of course.
dun tink dat my course is all in mandarin ok.
NO.
we even share some of the same modules wif
mass comm.
so dun ever say dat we are cheenas or wadever.
plz.
as master boey says,
no stereotyping.
it may be inaccurate.
we are juz better at chinese.
nt dat we cant speak english fluently or write proper english.
all of us hav to score at least a B for o's to be able to enter this course ok.
our L1R4 is avg 12.
intake is only 80.
so we gotta fight for this course even.
i mean all i wanna tell those who dont noe abt this course well is
dat plz dont ever look down on us.
we dont study only chinese lit n boring stuffs.
we have v fun songs lyrics writing, dramas, speech com
n the list goes on.
also,
all students in chinese studies wont graduate becoming a teacher.
those who wld be going to NIE are those who have passed
the interview n signed a bond.
the rez who dont wan to be in teaching track
are in media track.
yea.
basically its smth like dat.
i hope i can gif u guys a clearer pic of wad chinese studies is all abt.
oh god.
since when did i start rambling abt my course?
ok lets put an end to it.
oh i haf got to thank yao yao for assisting me to set up
dat livejournal thingy for writ com in chinese module.
so i haf to blog at dere too but nt in english la.
wa.
can make use of translation skills we learn ya?
we got our journal assignment todae.
damn it.
gotta hand it up by week 4.
argh shucks.
dats in english.
my english is "HORRIGIBLE".
so i dread writing it.
n we wrote our first mini drama script today!
mine was v lame n stupid la.
dun wish to tok abt it.
anyway i went home alone again todae.
perhaps i prefer peace n silence during my return trip ba.
so i get to tink abt my day spent
n reflect upon it.
yup.
dats life for me i guess.
my brain never stops working.
it's consistently generating n generating
many many questions, ideas, thoughts, blablablas.
though my sickness doesnt allow me to overwork my brain
but i couldnt help it.
its nt smth i can control.
mayb others wun ever understand.
coz no one noes me better than i do.
but im satisfied having this great family
n superb frenz of mine.
wad else to ask for?
ohyay!
my bestest fren in life, xianxian's
birthday is cuming soon!
ive been tinking of wad to get for her.
smth dat can be sent by mail.
n shh.
she may be reading this!
i cant reveal much.
geex.
she wld be fuming mad if she reads this.
n ryan has plans to go for poly.
yup.
if jc realli doesnt suits him den theres no point retaining.
most imptly he muz be comfy wif his decision.
hope he'll be a happier person when he comes to
join us these bunch of fun n warm poly students!
we are always hyper !
for my class- the highest level of hyper!
haha.
basically we kisiao everidae.
dat makes life much easier n relaxing for all of us.
n we played a game during master boey's tutorial.
n the conclusion,
I AM VIOLENT!
im a fish-killer!
we had so much fun we juz cant stop laughing
at every single comment dat we made.
im realli fortunate having assigned to this class
where i can realli make full use of my
SUPER HYPER power!
nt forgetting our sharp eyes.......
hehehe.

10:54 PM ·

im so tired!!
i didnt sleep the entire last night.
dun ask me y.
and wad de.
theres no story telling todae!
ive made a mistake!
argh!
so much for pongteng-ing alfred's lesson.
my stomach is aching now.
cramp.
yea.
wad i hate most in a month.
teaching training juz now was enjoyable.
though todae we didnt hav much games etc.
its a talk session mostly la.
but i still find it enjoyable.
i was so busy wif the preparation of my story telling
dat i forgot i actualli had tuition session wif arfah todae!
shes having her english exam tmr
n i couldnt go over to help todae.
=(
but on fri aft sch ends at 5pm,
i'll chiong to her place by 7pm and tutor her till 9pm.
on sat i have work frm 8am till 6pm.
in between i have lessons to follow as well.
on sundae my work ends at 3pm,
den i'll chiong to her place by 4pm and tutor her all the way till 7pm.
next dae which is mondae,
sch ends at 5pm,
and i'll chiong to her place by 7pm
and tutor her all the way till 10pm.
my schedule is realli packed.
goodness.
i can hardly breathe.
but for my dream my hope,
i must persevere!
OH YA!
i got caught for my ezlink card for the 2nd time todae!
my frenz would noe wad i mean by dat la.
KAO!
so effing suay n unlucky can!!!
i was smart enuf to hand him my sec sch ez link card
which is now useless ,
and he confiscated it.
told me to dial this phone number 5 daes later.
crazy.
as if i would go all the way down to dunno where
to collect a redundant card.
waste time waste money.
im nt intending to get it back anyway.
juz plain SUAY todae la.
my eyes are shutting soon.
cant tahan liao.
byeeeee.

12:21 AM ·

OH MY GOD. i juz luv this top. its unique n special.

stripey stripey cardigan!

yay!

i bot one the other dae too! =)

i love polkadots! this is so stylish!

11:51 PM ·

selamat hari raya adilfitri !!
green, pink, black, colours here n everywhere.
families were dressed in the same colour.
perhaps dat has has always been their tradition.
harmony is the word to describe them.
malays used to be a nono for me.
but im slowly accepting them.
their culture their festivals.
especially now dat i hav a malay student
all the more i shld nt keep a distance away frm them.
yea.
n nt STEREOTYPE them.
anyway quite an enjoyable dae for me todae.
coz i found myself a sponsor for my bag alr.
haha.
yea.
none other than my cutie pie DADDY!
hes been sponsoring for my expenses since
i was in mummy's womb.
how true.
so i got my polkadots bag as ez as abc!
juz step out the hse wif daddy beside me
n i get wad i want!
yipee!
happy happy!
oh n daddy was so kind to gif me $50 again!
gonna use dat money wisely.
$5 would be saved for SAG's concert tix.
$10 saved for band concert tix.
wad sia.
$15 gone liddat.
but neh mind la.
how can frenz be compared to money.
hmm gonna save $10 for bank.
half the money gone liddat liao.
shld eat out less often.
eat cheaper food.
$1.50 mixed veg rice is the bez.
cheapy n tasty.
but always ends up in the loo.
mayb nt hygenic ba.
but shldnt care dat much la.
oh man.
tmr theres teaching training.
n im nt even sure whether its the actual recording or not.
argh.
gonna prepare it tmr.
so gotta chiong home to rehearse.
it can be tiring really.
n tmr i haf to get to sch by 8am.
wake up latest by 5.30am.
damn.
but im glad i dun hav to tink abt wad to put on tmr
coz ive alr decided.
bel n i are goin to put on the similar belt shorts we hav.
geex. =)
oh n im shock boyboy actualli went to create a blog himself!
but i changed the skin for him la.
tinking abt the story telling tmr
i'll feel so eee.
oh ya.
muz remind myself to get satay sticks tmr.
im borrred.
tatas.~

11:44 PM ·

my day started off pretty well.
met few ppl whom i realli would like to meet.
so i was all hyped up.
my day went smoothly till alfred's lesson
when i tot hes toking rubbish
n he doesnt make sense.
got me a lil pissed
n so i didnt wan to pay much attention to him.
den i saw nan nan.
omg.
im so =).
coz its nt chenying finally!
but...
after his lesson started i realised i dunno wad hes toking too.
wad zhe xue...wad wad...
so i ended up ignoring him as much i dont wish to.
den we started toking
n i was pretty affected by wad ive heard.
im so blardy angry wif dat fugly idiot
dat caused so much hurt to others.
can she juz stop her nonsense
n be a bit more considerate?
does she noe dat all her foolish actions
may cause hurt to others without
herself even realising it?
i juz cant understand y the hell
does god allow these kinda ppl to survive in this world.
it juz makes no sense to me sumhow.
is it v fun going ard hurting ppl?
i seriously dun tink so.
although im nt the one being hurt
but i feel for the one dats hurt.
ARGGHHHH!
i went home alone coz i wanna tink abt
all the confusions going ard bumping into each other in my head.
thought of so much during the looonggg trip home
n my head nearly BURST.
n now i believe dat if u gif urself too much pressure n stress
u get a headache.
coz dat headache lasted frm the train till now.
three-four hours of headache alr.
its making me CRAZY NW!
n noeing dat my head was in such a pain,
my mood n temper wldnt be dat great either.
n i juz flared up,
ended up quarelling wif my daddy n mummy.
WAD THE EFF!
i was so angry so fed up with everything
dat i took the big bar of chocolate frm fridge
n ate more than half of it within 15 mins.
ARRGGGHHH!!!
den i went online n saw huiying.
my dearest sec sch fren.
i miss her so much.
toked to her n tears juz welled up in my eyes.
i hav no idea y i get so emo
but i juz couldnt control the tears.
i miss my gud old sec 4 sch days.
the days spent wif her.
the days when we had higher chinese.
the days when we would eat tgt at food court
n slacked ard till it was half an hr late for higher chinese lesson.
opposite attracts.
dats v true.
shes so tall.
n im so short.
shes so blardy skinny underweight
n im so fat.
dats exactly how a pair should be.
i juz wanna be back wif her again.
the happy times we shared
and the tears we shed.
shes in nanyang jc
n she doesnt seem to do well.
she might retain.
was back into dat emo state again
n i tot of ryan.
so this i msged him asking hows his promos
n he was juz back home frm sch.
principal gave him a slashing.
he couldnt make it.
he needs to retain.
n he told me he was tinking of goin army.
n i stopped his tot.
persuaded him nt to enlist n eventually
he dropped the idea of army.
phew.
den he said he wanted to go private.
n i told him how the cert wouldnt
be dat recognised n
the $ is juz not worth it.
n he heeded my advice.
im glad he did.
so hes gonna repeat.
coz i realli treasure himAS as my fren alot.
i wan to see him get the bez of everything.
n i will never forget the beautiful memories he gave me
during secondary school daes.
im sry for once breaking ur heart.
i realli dont wish to.
trust me.
i realli dont.
but im glad we are still frenz now.
thanks for being such a great fren.
argh.
im still so pissed tinking of dat slut.
ASSHOLE!
EFFING SLUT!
JUZ STOP UR HAZARDOUS ACTS!
BE CONSIDERATE!

damn.
she spoilt my day.
rahhhsss.

10:01 PM ·

A-Damn good kisser.
B- Good all around person.
C- You're wild & crazy.
D- You have one of the best personalities ever.
E-You have a nice ass.
F- People totally adore you.
G- You never let people tell you what to do.
H- You have a very good personality and looks.
I- You get hyper easily.
J- Everyone loves you.
K- You like to try new things.
L- You live to have fun.
M- Success comes easily to you.
N- You are absolutely beautiful.
O- You're an awesome person.
P- You are popular with all types of people.
Q- You are a hypocrite.
R- Sexy!
S- Easy to fall in love with.
T- You're loyal to those you love.
U- You really like to chill.
V- You are not judgemental.
W- You are very broad minded.
X- You never let people tell you what to do.
Y- One of the best bfs/gfs anyone could ask for.
Z- You're a little too hard to find.

so basically koped this frm zhiyang's bloggie.
n here it goes:

J- Everyone loves you. (how i wish.)
E-You have a nice ass. (plz. its huge!)
S- Easy to fall in love with. (sure?)
S- Easy to fall in love with. (wow. double easy.)
I- You get hyper easily. (dats absolutely correct.)
C- You're wild & crazy. (yea. im always so crazy.)
A-Damn good kisser. (for me to noe n for u to find out!)
anyway im juz bored la.
DA SHOU HUO todae as well.
but this time no sponsors la.
went shopping alone after work.
bought the piece of spaghetti tanktop wif cardigan.
and also bought another hotpink round neck bubbly-sleeved tee.
both for only $17!!
wahaha.
den i went aries.
bought a white bangle $1.90.
hellokitty clip $4.90.
podlka dots bubbly hairband $2.50.
pair of dollie earrings dats realli special. $3.90.
total $13.20.
den i went to mini bits.
bought a hairband $2.95.
during work i ate jap meal at $4.
so let me see how much ive spent todae.
$37.15!!!!!
daddy juz gave me $50 n i spent like 3/4 of the $ away!
i almost bought a watch for $13
and a $9 top.
im officially bankrupt la.
i can realli spend alot on clothes n accessories man.
as if im a qian jing xiao jie when im not.
reallii ought to be punished.
but i juz cant kick this bad habit of buying clothes.
n when i buy clothes i tink of the accessories to match wif
n i'll proceed to buy the accessories.
now im aiming this $18 bag i saw juz now,
dat $9 top hopefully can buy asap,
and looking out for nice n cheap watches.
well.
too little money.
too many things to buy.
haix.
life's like dat i guess.
but we muz ZHI ZHU CHANG LE.
yes!
tink of the positive way.
i tink i hav a bit more clothes than sum others.
so i muz be satisfied.
yes.
satisfied dats the way.
yup.
ok.
i feel better.
haha.
alright.
gonna catch my QUAN XIANG YU'S show!
cya!

6:05 PM ·

OMG!
im so happy todae!
had work in the morning till evening.
improved quite alot.
answered one realli tough phone call
n i pulled it off pretty well.
the parent was rather happy wif my replies
n she thanked me etc.
so i was like so satisfied wif myself.
yup.
achievement.
den after my work mummy n daddy came to look for me.
they brought me to shopping!
went paya lebar,bedok,tampines....
bought clothes, bottoms, shoes..
spent $150++ on clothes
and $20 on my shoes.
all sponsored by daddy.
hes the bez man.
kept asking me to buy this n dat.
when i picked one cardigan n walking ard to search for others,
he was like saying,
"aiyo, u walked ard for so long n juz bot one cardigan?
buy more buy more!"
so shiok to hear dat la.
den he took this skirt n dat skirt to show me.
but i dun realli wanna buy skirts u see.
i wan more pants.
coz ahliang's tutorial cant wear skirts.
n im nt those guai guai shu nv.
im juz nt elegant in any way.
so i dun realli haf much of dat kind of clothing.
realli like wad i bot todae.
if im nt wrong,
i bot 1 cardigan,
1 cardigan with tank top,
2 big sleeves top,
1 bubbly sleeve top,
1 bubbly shorts,
1 kneecap pants
and my fav piece of the dae,
a capri pants or 'leggings' if u call it.
and den my SHOES!
yay!
n my daddy knew i had this suddent urge of eating mangoes,
so he went to buy mangoes for me!
DA SHOU HUO!
realli haf to say a BBBBIIIIGGG thank u to daddy for being my sponsor again!
n mummy for shopping wif me!
certainly burnt another hole in daddy's pocket.
hes wearing a pants wif multiples holes now.
n im the one who cut them all.
=x
realli guilty.
but i promise i'll be a gud gal ok?
eh dun laugh leh.
in fact ive oways been a gud gal.
haha.
eh...shhh..
"NO LOUDING" ar.
k la.
superb high todae.
OH n abt ytd's zhong qiu wan huI!
it was a great success!
nt only the event was a sucess,
but zhaizi's bdae surprise was a success too!
n im so touched when i saw this info on epilepsy on my table.
da jie actualli went to print it out
for me to understand myself better.
i luv u guys so much!

*i juz wan this msn guy to stop irritating me!!
GET LOST WOULD U?

12:14 AM ·

me n 5th PRINCE OF KHEK family. haha =)

blardy tired n dead these few daes.
like a zombie walking ard.
sat sun been working.
mon had sch den rushed to teaching training.
reached home at 11pm plus.
slept at 1am+ woke up at 6am.
tues had sch n teaching training.
had supper aft dat n reached home at 11.35pm.
slept at 2am+ n woke up at 5.15am.
wed had sch n teaching training.
reached home at 11pm plus.
slept at 2.30am and woke up at 6.30am.
so tink u shld understand y im so shag these few daes.
especially todae.
i juz wanna DIE.
my body is giving way.
been so long since i last had this kind of feeling.
nt even for o's.
was so reluctant to wake up this morning for sch.
i so wanted to pong teng.
during ahliang's tutorial i couldnt help but fell asleep.
so i missed the middle part of the LIAN AI TAO HUA YUAN.
altho i wasnt in a very comfy position but sumhow
i managed to juz doze off.
wanted to go home aft dat but it was chenying's lesson.
i cant skip her tutorial coz im so gonna get a WARNING LETTER for dat.
dropped dat idea eventually.
so i was tinking of goin home aft her tutorial.
skip boey's tutorial coz i didnt bring the book n
i tot he was FIERCE at first.
but he turned out to be excellent!
we even had a mini role play
n i enjoyed his tutorial the most!
im so glad i didnt go home.
his tutorial seemed to end pretty fast.
but it was 2 hrs.
the same duration as chenying's.
but it takes like yearrrrrs for chenying's tutorial to end.
yea.
mayb im so much more interested in communication
than all the TAI SHANs and bla bla shans.
fortunately boey ended my dae peacefully n happily.
n nt her.
i didnt get to slp on train coz frm clementi to tamp
i was standing all the way.
oh ya n before i hopped on the bus outside sch
i met qinghong.
the guy frm psp.
cant realli rmb if his name is qinghong or wad hong.
i was so shocked to see him
so i guess my eyes were like widely opened.
n dat left him puzzled.
haha.
but i had to board my bus n
so i didnt realli get to tok to him.
when i was inside the bus n the bus was leaving,
he even managed to wave gudbye n smile at me.
dat juz made me so touched.
i dunno y i felt touched over such minor actions
but prob i was alone at dat time n
started to get kinda emo again.
n sumone juz appeared n grabbed my hand,
n brought me out of my emo land.
sumthing like dat la.
juz felt the warmth.
realli glad to noe him thru psp
n being same grp as him for duties.
hes v nice n caring
coz he nvr fails to volunteer to help me cover for my duties
when he saw dat i was so pek cek dat time
n needed sum time.
realli grateful.
been so long since i last saw him
n it felt realli great to see him once again.
oh tmr's meeting time has been changed to
1pm.
which means i can catch more slp!
yay!
tmr chs wld be having ZHONG QIU WAN HUI.
DAMN.
i tink it would end pretty late.
n i gotta wake up at 7am nxt morning
despite it being saturdae.
hello.
im so used to waking up at 1pm during saturdays.
n now my life needs a change.
back to the politically correct life.
and when i was in the train heading back home,
i received a sms.
from zechariah.
zech.
omg.
been some time since we last met each other n sms each other.
i feel so guilty n so ashamed
becoz he had to sms first before i'll reply.
n it makes me feel like i dun tink of him animore
now dat im so into my new life.
its not dat.
certainly not.
but im afraid he'll tink so.
but dats so not true.
i tink of him every now n then
but i juz wonder y each time i tink of him
i dun get my phone out to msg him.
n its so sweet of him to msg me every now n then
asking me hows my life
n whether ive been happy or not.
so i told him ive been into teaching n stuffs.
n asked if hes having a gud time too.
so he said,
"me ah life like dat lor..boring. haha.
wow become teacher haha... anyway me currently working
at esprit. if u wanna get clothes can come n find me hehe.
give u staff discount. haiz. actually see when u free maybe meet u out n chat.
really very long didnt get to chat wif u. anyway got bf now?"
haha.
damn funny sia.
n realli GUILTY this time.
coz i always seem to be declining his offer to meet up.
but when in actual fact i really miss him hell lots.
im juz so shy.
im SERIOUS.
i mean ppl may tink dat such a LOUD girl
has to be v brave n outspoken n stuffs.
but NO.
im pretty shy at times.
only ppl who noe me well can understand wad i mean.
so plz dun tink dat im v v v outgoing.
i mean I AM OUTGOING.
but im still a gal afterall.
so plz understand dat I CAN BE SHY OK.
but but but but but....
im still VERY HAPPY TODAE!
thanks to qinghong n zech n boey!

9:16 PM ·

Finally!
im switiching to PICASA to post my pictures now.
coz i had enuf of blogger's.
these are the pics taken ytd!
todaes pics wld be uploaded tonight
when i return frm my teaching training k?
meanwhile slacking at home waiting for time to pass.
went to harbourfront juz now to hav nasi ayam n bandung.
damn nice.
got to thank bel n mei for their recommendations.
n im so touched dat mei actualli went to help me take the books
i need for socpysh frm her fren in the morning.
so thoughtful n sweet of her.
so i tot of givng her a small lil gift as surprise too.
gonna leave hse earlier for dat.
hope shes happy to receive the gift tmr.
well these are the pics of the training notes:

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3:57 PM ·

this is WANGYU wif his new clean n neat hairstyle!
posted his pic her coz i wanna thank him for his larvely souvenirs.
thanks man!

3:56 PM ·

Haha.
finally get to post this PRETTY pic of 2 LARVELY girls.
i tink we juz look pretty in this pic!
BOTH OF US!!
haha.
ya la.
bu yao lian.
dats me.

3:41 PM ·

weehee.
FIRST DAY of school!
i sure enjoyed my first schooling dae.
it was fantastic.
so not stressful.
simply slacked our time away.
went to alumni to "waste off" our time
n we sure can crap alot huh.
n we camwhored too!
alot of the pics are in bel's n mei's cam.
cant wait for them to upload.
i cant wait to see!
aiya.
we are too zi lian dats y.
oh nono.
should be CONFIDENCE!
i believe this gang of us all hav self confidence!
haha.
well after sch went for early dinner at 5pm+.
den i went for my FIRST TEACHER TRAINING!
at somerset.
orchard emerald.
had such a great time dere.
we played games,
sang songs,
had ice breaking
and of coz the basic learning stuffs.
was surprised dat most of the teachers-to-be
are of average 30 yrs old.
dats only an average.
im the only 17.
next youngest is 21 alr.
only handful of twenty plus i guess.
the rez i believe are 30yrs n above.
not dat i despise them wadsoever.
jz couldnt imagine myself having them as my audience
for story telling.
n u noe u realli haf to exaggarate.
BIG actions n realli LOUD.
oh man.
im so gonna die tmr n the dae after.
wednesdae they are goin to video us individually while having story telling.
man.
dats gonna be so UGLY.
im sure i'll look clumsy n stupid.
but still,
i haf to conquer my fear n all.
coz i noe these are goin to benefit me in future.
working towards my goals n dreams u see.
haha.
anw daddy n mummy came to pick me up after my training.
ended at 10pm.
cant imagine having to take train n bus to go home.
i'll be so tired next dae in sch due to lack of slp.
so as usual
the thoughtful n forever cutey couple mummy n daddy
came to fetch me.
daddy even bought mummy n i
ICE CREAM!
so we ate happily in the car
while he had to drive.
oh.
sound so pathetic.
no la.
daddy noes i luv him alot.
so he wun mind.
n in the car he was like telling me how all these experience wld benefit me.
giving home tuition...
attending these teaching trainings...
working as admin in tuition centre...
teaching in a tuition centre..
blablabla.
ya n i was so happy wif myself.
coz these jobs didnt cum easy at all.
i strived so much for them
n i always believe in
"theres a will, theres a way"
becoz i feel dat if u wan to achieve smth,
u deifinitely haf the ability,
but it all depends on whether u are determined enuf
n whether u put in ur best effort.
same goes for clinching a deal.
i tried again n again sending so many assignments email to
tuition 101 n even though i faced rejections for sum assignments,
i didnt gif up.
my second sis juz gave up.
i wasnt at all pleased wif her attitude.
i juz kept trying.
checking my mails everidae to see if there are new assignments to take on.
n sending emails to them applying for these asssignments.
huang tian bu fu ku xin ren.
u reap wad u sow.
n dats how i got my first tuition assignment.
den came the newspaper ad.
saw it one morning n
i grabbed the chance immediately.
picked up the phone without hesitation n dialled.
n was asked to go down for interview.
within an hour i was ready for interview.
so i went to t mart wif heart beating so fast i felt
i was goin to die of heart attack.
found BERRIES tuition centre n went in.
when i first stepped in n surveyed the surrounding,
i saw how homely it was n i juz felt so comfortable.
so i told myself i MUST work in there.
n i gave my bez during the interview,
wrote my bez on the many many questions form,
n went thru the ORAL test.
literally oral test ok.
read out a passage n stuffs.
i was reading so loud the entire tuition centre was filled wif my voice.
i didnt scream
but whenever i want to put my msg across clearly,
my voice tends to BIRGHTEN up n naturally
the volume gets slightly louder.
i expressed myself the bez i could
n wasnt shy to kind of "act out" the characters using my voice.
i was pretty desperate for the job la.
so after the interview i was quite confident i wld be chosen.
but i was worried at the same time coz im competing wif
many well experienced teachers as well.
moreover im only 17.
would they employ us tinking we are youngsters
n treating this whole thing as a joke?
after several daes i wasnt called.
i was so disappointed n upset dat week
but didnt wan to show it.
mayb i simply dun wan my family n frens to
noe dat i actualli cared so much for this interview i went.
my family could sense it sumhow im sure
coz they were dearest to me.
my parents especially avoided this tuition topic
hoping nt to get me upset.
but one fine dae when i was wif meng n yao
i got a missed call
n it was BERRIES.
they got me to work as their admin staff for 2 months first
and when the sch starts after dec
i'll be their teacher then.
i was so elated!
its like my dream came true!
it juz tells me dat
i really reap wad i sow.
becoz ive never failed in anything
when i put in my best effort.
i mean i noe for myself when i realli gave it my bez or not.
after these long boring TOK ive been giving,
i only hope to let ppl noe dat
never look down on urself realli.
GOD BROUGHT U TO THIS WORLD FOR A REASON.
BECOZ HE NOES U WILL MAKE THIS WORLD A BETTER PLACE.
so put in ur best effort in wadever u do
n strive for the best.

BELIEVE IN URSELF.....LIKE I ALWAYS BELIEVE IN U.

(wad de. I cant post the pretty pic I took wif mei mei todae. N also many other pics of my teaching training stuffs. N also wangyu’s souvenirs. SHIt MAN. Shall post it tmr. Its 12.55am n I haf to get up at 6am tmr. Guess its time for me to turn in. nitez.)

12:39 AM ·

WAD THE!!!
can this freaking idiot living
freakishly above this freak ceiling of mine
juz STOP dat freakers' knocking of yours!
its 12.07am n im abt to turn in!
i juz wanna blog abt YOU
becoz i wan to rmb it for as long as this bloggie stays!
i hate ppl who make unnecessary noise can!
its effing NOISY mind you!
if u seriously haf nth better to do
i suggest you
GO TO HELL!
oh.
PRESS THE 18TH BUTTON.

*hey sry guys.
i juz hate this person for spoiling my wonderful dae.

12:12 AM ·

yoyo.
i shld be in bed.
but i juz wanna do a short blogging first.
well oh well.
todaes my second dae at work.
the senior admin ytd was teacher hong.
shes fantastic.
the senior admin todae was teacher zheng.
well i prefer teacher hong actualli.
but teacher zheng wasnt dat bad afterall.
i tink hong doesnt hides her true "face" in front of others
but i sumhow sense zheng was.
perhaps u dun get wad i mean.
but nvm.
todae worked till 3.37pm.
supposed to be 3pm but 2 parents came
n started yaking so much abt their daughter
being stupid n not diligent.
i was lucky becoz i was nt the one dealing wif them.
it was zheng.
n i juz loitered at the pantry area waiting for
zheng to settle them down.
n in the end zheng told me to go home first.
i took my bag n left as told.
coz ive got to buy clothes for the new semester u see.
my wardrobe has so nt enuf clothes for me to survive.
so i went home.
had a tiff wif mummy regarding FOOD.
well dat was over la.
"shook hands."
den my parents bot stingray n other dishes plus rice
for our dinner.
the stingray tasted SUPERB.
haiya.
forgot to take pics to show u all.
but it was v spicy.
i almost teared.
bro wanted to tag wif me so we went to tm.
put on the RIBBION clip which i luv alot
out on the streets for the very first time!

saw melvin (da jie's ex) in popular.
he shaved his hair.
n i dun wish to say further abt his current gf.
wanted to buy bottom
but i always end up buying top.
i juz dont noe y.
same goes for this time.
bought 4 tops.
frm cheapest. ascending order.
$10.$16.$18.$18.
dad gave me $50.
n i even exceeded dat amt.
cant believe clothes nowadays are so ex.
still rmb how i used to buy dat 2 pieces of $5 tops.
yea it still can be found right now.
but they are so _____
i juz couldnt put them on la.
so juz ren ming.
bt 4 tops simply INSUFFICIENT.
wad to do.
daddy alr gave me so much for rebonding.
cant possibly stretch my hands out
expecting him to drop me money right?
i wun have the heart to do dat.
but still i enjoyed my day alot todae.
tmr straight after sch
i haf to CHIONG to somerset for my
1st TEACHING TRAINING!
god bless me! =)

as usual, its a GOOD day today!

(was pretty warm n sweaty when i took this pic after reaching hm.)

11:03 PM ·

HEYHEY!
todae's my FIRST dae work at BERRIES tuition centre
as their admin staff.
of coz i would be teaching
but haf to go thru training first.
so for these 2 months i wld be working as their admin staff
earning $6 per hour.
only on weekends la.
so i'll a total of $90 on sat n sun.
yup.
n todaes my very first dae.
had a new experience working as admin.
my worst fear was when the senior admin left for toilet etc
n the phone rang.
like so paiseh la.
only answered it once when there were no other teachers ard.
luckily wad the parent asked was wad i knew.
tmr im so gonna die.
the senior admin tmr has a lesson at 10.45am to 12.30pm.
so which means dat time i'll be ALONE attending to all the admin stuffs.
damn.
how am i suppose to handle all those complicated stuffs?
its realli nt easy running a tuition centre i muz say.
there are simply too many stuffs to handle.
n i muz realli work hard n learn the ropes fast.
after working straight 10 hours todae im so dead beat now can.
even had to skip my baby cousin's 1 month buffet dinner at
this high class place as told by daddy.
the food served muz be yummylicious lor.
but neh mind.
at least i dun eat too much n grrow even more horizontally.
my state now is alr pathetic enuf le huh.
no more allowance to grow.
muz deflate!
if nt it'll explode sumdae.
argh enuf of this weight thingy.
makes me so PEK CEK.
the time now is only 9.38pm
n i feel as if i can drop dead anytime on my bed now.
anw i spent most of my day in BERRIES.
8am-6pm.
OH YA.
i changed my lappie's wallpaper alr.
n my BERRIES sent me their contract todae.
contract sia.
nv signed a contract before.
yup.
teaching track contract next.
geex.
BERRIES ROCKS!
had a wonderful dae todae!
YEA!!!! =)

8:58 PM ·

ytd was YAO'S bdae!
it was a successsful one!!
we all enjoyed ourselves n im sure YAO
really was SHOCKED to see us !
im sure he likes the wallet frm topman
n the cake frm bengawan solo.
kao.
the cake didnt cum easy at all.
i was searching for prima deli for so blardy damn long
n realised it actualli DAO BI alr.
i wonder how many rounds i made at clementi interchange.
walked n walked till my feet hurt
n i didnt eat since god noes wad time
n my stomach was growling.
nt to mention i was perspiring profusely.
felt as im walking in the rain.
carried the stupid bags of mcdonals
plus the stupid drink
n the free sundae icecream.
n on the other hand
i was carrying the huge cake
n so afraid it would collapse.
my feet hurt so i was walking like a duck.
quack quack quack.
when i saw the taxi stand
i felt as if god was heartbroken to see me in dat pathetic state.
hopped on the taxi n
dat kinda HMMMmmmm feeling came frm the bottom of my heart.
simply SHIOK.
but the worst was yet to come.
i didnt noe where the sag ppl are.
but i heard the noises cuming frm the band.
so i knew there were ppl there
n i followed it till i reached canteen one.
few aunties n uncles were there
closing their stall alr.
it was 8.45pm i tink.
n soon the lights went off row by row.
i was so afraid the uncle would juz shut all the lights off.
so i stared at him n
thank god.
he didnt switch dat row of lights off where i was.
but it was terrible.
one young girl sitting alone in the huge canteen wif only one row of lights on.
n she had to face the darkness in front of her.
staring at the bdae cake,
i told myself i muz hang on.
becoz i knew it would be all worthwhile.
i kept tinking sumone was behind me
n i juz couldnt stop turning my head again n again.
only to see nothing.
managed to contact yu n he was actualli in sch all this while.
so i hurried him to accompany me
but he took eternity.
he went to the WRONG canteen even.
seeing him was like seeing the taxis previously.
totally AWESOME.
zhaijun came shortly after
followed by bel.
the climax was when we went in the room
wif the lights off n the candles on.
singing bdae song for yao...
he was so touched n i could see the tears in his eyes.
though ive used up so many smses to inform everyone abt this surprise
n all the etc etc,
n the blisters suffered frm the cake
n the gurelling experience alone in the dark canteen,
IT WAS ALL WORTHWHILE.
ive known yao since sec 4
n frm a stranger,
to a hi-bye fren,
n now one of my BESTEST fren,
it wasnt easy for all these to happen.
im deeply touched to see the smile on his face.
there are simply too many memories dat we shared......

n i realli wan to thank everyone for making this successful.
thanks for being so PEI HE.
so happy n grateful to u guys for saying YES to this mini party.


A BIG THANK U!!!

3:33 PM ·

hey ppl
HOME SWEET HOME.
back home wif the NEW HAIR of mine!
only rebond la.
nth much.
gonna dye few weeks later.
well.
i simply luv storm.
luv sam n the assistant even more!
they entertained me throughout dat gruelling 4 hours plus.
ok la.
i made it sound so exhausting.
well actualli not.
getting to noe dat assistant is the happiest thing dat happened to me todae.
not only is he gud looking,
he's quite a gud entertainer too.
he toks alot to me
n juz knew how to make me laugh.
a v v v v nice young chap la.
hope to see him soon when i return for my dye.
after the rebond it was alr 8pm.
i had to rush down to meet brudder n the rez.
so i rushed to mrt n
took the train to bugis.
yup.
got wad we wanted.
=)
den we ate tgt at 9pm+.
how sinful.
i finished the entire bowl of char siew noodles.
it was simply scrumptious.
den we yak abt many stuffs.
realli glad to see wangyu.
pretty shocking too.
he can enter the army anytime.
he's all ready.
haha.
omg.
so evil.
ok.
anyway sy told me to show her i look
wif my new hair.
so i took sum pics for her to see.
haha.
realli bad at camwhoring.
only few shots still passable.
DUN LAUGH.

Ok this is me when trying to act like SHU NV. 5/10. (totally cmi.)

And me trying to act AH LIAN AH HUI. 7.5/10 (well can pass la.)This is me trying to act CUTE wif my ZHAO PAI TWIST! 10/10. (totally ME!)WAHAHA.

LAME SIA.

buzzzz.

12:45 AM ·

haha
imback.
waiting for my lunch n
sis n bro to return.
v sian.
so ..
camwhored!
And i would like to post sum of the moz precious stuffs i
own in my 17 yrs of life.

FIRST: FAMILY.
SECOND: FRIENDS
THIRD: ME MYSELF N I

FOURTH: MY HAIR!!
FIFITH: all my HELLOKITTY collections.SIXTH: MUSIC

sum of my fav albums which mean alot to me.

these are the few which i treasure moz.

either i luv the singers,

or the songs mean alot to me,

or the cum about of the album means alot to me.

yippe yup.

Of coz my clothes.

this pic shows the messy clothes i wear at home.

This 2 cabinets is wad i wear to gai gai. (too bad cant shoot the inside)

im off to storm!

BYE! =)

2:25 PM ·